Non-Baby News

In non-baby related news.  I had Mr. H.'s favorite desk chair re-upholostered as part of my IVF#2, 2ww distractions and it was finally finished this week.  I was very pleased at how it turned out.  At least something useful came out of that cycle.

Before:

After:

Mr. H. is very happy to have his chair back and he says it has more cushioning than it did before. I have an interest in re-upholstering one of our couch's but the chair was pretty pricy so I would have to seriously think about doing a couch.  Although it is a lot of fun picking out the fabrics etc.

IUI and a New 2 WW

We had an IUI today. Wow that was a quick two weeks.  So that means we are officially in the two week wait again! So excited I have a good feeling about this one!

October 15th

Today is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Day.  Since we lost our son four months ago, this is obviously very close to our heart. We lit a candle at 7 pm.

**As a side note, Charlie is in an urn next to our bed.  I ordered an urn when he was cremated but his ashes wouldn't fit in it.  So we ordered a teddy bear urn.  In the interim, we put him with the Sleep Sheep that he loved to listen to in the womb (the only way I could get him to stop kicking and go to sleep). The teddy bear urn was a logistic nightmare to get.  Mr. H and I decided to take this as a sign that he was happy the way he was.  We keep the teddy bear urn (it is a stuffed bear) with the sheep. **

I wish that this was not such a taboo subject. I find much comfort and peace in talking about Charlie and all the happiness that he still brings me.

News Good and Bad

So I was all ready to upload a picture of my positive home pregnancy test on September 26th (Charlie's due date).  We were so excited because the IVF worked again! Well the beta came in at 38 but we were a few days early so the "real test" was two days later and the beta was 46.  Obviously disappointing but maybe there was still reason to hope!  Two days later (09.30.11) my beta was 30.6.  A chemical pregnancy. I have been beyond disappointed.

We are doing an IUI this month (October) and if that doesn't work (please work!) then we are meeting with a new RE on the 27th to see what he has to say.

We are also seriously considering gestational surrogacy.  Having another baby is going to involve a preventative cerclage (cervix sewn closed) because I delivered Charlie without any labor pains. Another baby also carries the risk of pre-term labor.  I have asked my sister and she has said yes (if we need her).   If you thought IVF was complicated than I don't know how to describe the process that is gestational surrogacy.  It will be so worth it in the end though!  I feel like one way or another we are going to end up with a baby!! Now I know why they say that you have to withstand the rain to get a rainbow.

And  thanks to God for giving me such an awesome sister!